| I've gonnneee away. |
January, 26th 2005 |
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 cold |
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a kitten running around my room |
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Well hello there LJ land
to anyone that adds this account... it isn't used anymore!
You can now find my pointless babble
messy artwork
and other adventures at ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) vagrantminerva
See you there :>
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September, 4th 2004 |
a question:
does anyone out there in livejournal land know the cheapest places for airline tickets?
I'm creating an evil plan
mwuahaha
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September, 1st 2004 |
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 sore |
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mazzy star - fade into me |
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Last night around 2am I woke up with a horrible pain in my ear. One that wasn't just inside, but hurt so bad it spread to the side of my face and on a bit of my neck. I took some Excedrin quick tabs my dad gave me... which helped a little. I woke up then at about 7:21am and was in severe pain once again. Turns out though there is no vicadin in the house, and what was left from my last ear infection my dad took when his back was hurting a few weeks ago.
So I'm stuck with severe pain in my ear, where I am close to tears, and I have nothing for it. Excedrin didn't do much of anything.
When I told my mom this morning, she was pissed off and acted like it was my fault I had an ear infection. So, now I am hiding in my room, in incredible pain, as my mother is going psycho downstairs because she has a headache.
I am sure my ear infection pounding my head and the whole side of my face is worse then her headache. But you don't see me being a psycho.
So back to crying in bed :( I don't think I will be able to sleep in this pain though.
... oh but happy stuff before I go lay down.
The other night when Nates got off the phone he was upset with me :( Because I had been so mean to him lately. So I was sad the whole night and felt horrible.... then I woke up to find he was up all night after we got off the phone painting the computer he was going to send me. He went and bought blue lights for the inside and everything :)
My Nates might be the awesomeist ninja in town :D And I love him oh so much and he is oh so grand to me even though I suck :(
ok, lay down and cry time. pain.
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| all souls fire |
August, 31st 2004 |
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tired and angry |
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katatonia - in death, a song |
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-get prints up on furbid
-finish otter picture
-finish one more picture
-lose 10 pounds
-eat less then 1200 calories a day
-play ddr to fun songs to cheer me up
-watch Nate's B-day present on ebay so you don't lose it
-do at least two things around the house a day
-completely finish Death & Taxes CD so you can get it done with because they are anal and you want $200 now.
-take medicine EVERY day to avoid moodieness.
-Get mom to be ok with you going to see Nate
-make up at least half of the cost of a ticket
-Look for jobs to start about october
-bug other metal band guy to forward you $100
-clean room
-keep room clean to show mother responsibility
-clean house to show mother responsibility
-drink 2 liters of water a day
-write three nice things about myself in my LJ a day
-look for best prices on vets
-be more positive when talking to Nate so he doesn't feel like a jerk
-ask neggy how she gets blenders because I can only find them really exspensive online
-Mail out last art piece
-send out prints that are owed
-push CD jobs faster to get money to pay beth back
-pay Nates back for his trip and other $100 that I owe him
-look for more art jobs
-show responsibility by waking up by 9am every morning for my mother
That is my list.
it's long
and it freaks me out.
Tonight was kind of rough
3:30 am
perhaps she can sleep now.
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August, 24th 2004 |
The scale went down two pounds this morning.
:D
...that is all.
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| silver rain fell. |
June, 20th 2004 |
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tired... as usual. |
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Heather Nova - heart & shoulder. |
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your silver rain fell
trickled down every curve
glided over so slightly
every part of my skin
silver rain fell
and my heart swelled more
then I thought possible
and I welcome it
and every moment
that I may drown in it
My father said he might be able to help me see Nathan this summer
that would take a lot of stress off my shoulders right now.
I still need to find more freelance work
as I don't want a job to tie me down right now.
For Father's day I made him a card
showing the bloody deaths of the two chiwawah's that keep him up all night and day next door. They bark non stop, and their owner's don't seem to want to do anything about them. A beautiful drawing of an anvil atop some cute little chiwawah's was a nice present I think. I wanted to take him out for dinner, a nice father/daughter thing... but then my mom came along and my brother's... and soon my cousin was in the mix too. Kind of bummed me out.. I really wanted to spend time with Daddo =(
I feel so artistically rusty. Nothing I create seems to come out that good since I got my computer back... rigth when I really need it. I need to get my portfolio and everything up so I can find some more work. Find some web jobs as well.
I miss him I miss him I miss him I miss him...
Mom wants to get rid of Maggie... she's been acting up so terribly lately. Attacking all the other animals, even her own kittens. I don't know what else to do if she can't get her act together again... I don't know what's wrong with my Maggie Moo.
I'm so tired of these long days
I feel like I've gained 30 pounds.
I need to work my fat ass out.
I need to drink more then just 2 liters of water a day.
I'm running out of stacker 3... and if I buy things on Ebay now it shows up on mother's credit card
and she can see what I am buying.
My tummy is in knots.
Good news is that Fanbelt is damn adorable.
I'm very lonely
but I want to be alone.
Confusing. Eh.
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| Ew. |
June, 2nd 2004 |
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 silly |
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The rasmus - In the shadows |
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So... I was flushing my ears out again like the doctor told me to.
Apparently I have blockage from all my infections... so flushing it with hot water and hydrogen proroxide is supposed to clear it up and then it will just.. come out.
So I was flushing it with a syringe...
and flakes of black/tan are coming out of my right ear.
Then... BLOP
a big discusting glob of yucky-ness pops out of my ear.
...Yum.
Doesn't that make you just so hungry? Mmmmmm
Well, I can hear out of my right ear for the first time in months.
I will save it
just like I saved my teeth when I was little ^^
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| Prom Prom |
May, 9th 2004 |
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tired. |
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8th world wonder. |
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Prom went rather well I suppose.
I think the best part of it was the limo ride
and being able to get all dolled up. The dance was uneventful and they played the worst music possible. And people thought that their dancing was awesome.
The whole thing I was thinking it would be awesome to re-create the scene from Titanic where they go below deck and dance to the irish music. That would have been very fun.
Somehow... Tara annd them sort of ruined the night.
Hearing them bitch about Amber
and think about ways to hurt her.
It's fucking cruel and childish.
There was a girl at the dance with the same dress as Amber
and Tara made the comment of
"oh she has the same dress on as Amber, except she is skinny".
I wonder if she knows how big of a shallow bitch she sounds like.
It really, REALLY pissed me off. Amber is NOT fat. At all in anyway. She's goregeous.
So, I was left feeling like a heifer the whole night
I didn't wear a slutty skin tight dress with my boobs hanging out
or my ass for all to see....
and put Marilyn Monroe next to Calista Flockheart
and that's how BIG I looked next to them.
The kitty sleeping on my lap says to post pics
( So I posted these for kitty )
I would have regretted it had I not gone. I DID have fun. I can't bitch about it really. I did enjoy myself and am very happy I went and without a guy.
My brother, Amber and Nate left me text messages during the night
so when I was bored I could just respond to them =D
And so I came home
ate ice cream
and faught with Nate about how I should have a laser gun
and not him.
Then today I put peanut butter on Lilo's nose
and watched her lick it for 25 minutes.
The end.
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| Prom Night |
May, 8th 2004 |
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So, I should be taking a shower and getting ready for prom
but I wanted to post stupid toy pictures.
I got out of the picnic this morning
I dunno... I'm just not the social butterfly they all are. There are only certain people I go out and really... can hang out with.
I'm an odd ball I guess. I push people away easily.
( Unless they are my stuffed toys. )
Random Thought:
Why do people that only THINK they are good photographers...
but really, REALLY suck
have good cameras. DAMNIT.
I've been so busy and bad about reading LJ's and replying to comments... I'm sorry.
So, I am going to go work out a bit, then shower and have my mom mess around with my hair.
I will be a fairy princess DAMNIT
I will get out of the after parties as well, oh yesh indeed.
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April, 16th 2004 |
Just to let anyone that is wondering about the broken images know...
I moved to abnormis yesterday. So I have to move a lot of stuff over. Some images may just never work again. Oh my!
Much work to do.
Although... I slept all day because Eve had to eat the damn fruit from the tree and have been in extreme pain.
Three days left of spring break
I think I slept through most of it.
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| Hahahah |
April, 2nd 2004 |
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Original e-mail to Justin
Just sitting around thinking about what took place the other day.
To have a bunch of guys pissed at me for no reason, and to have someone (not sure who) edit my post calling me a bitch is completely messed up.
I don't know if you were mad at me for leaving the team temporarily, or what... but then the things you said about me to Nemmy was majorly messed up.
So yes, it's just been on my mind and I felt it would be stupid to be mad an not tell you why I am mad.
His response
Is there some reason why you're emailing me about yoru bad life?
I haven't talked to you. in fact, I don't care.
It was you who showed your true nature, I haven't hidden anything.
Duffey was purely pointing out a speculation, it *is* the Thought Catalyst, it's the nature of the beast. Don't open your mouth unless you expect results.
Were you expecting us to just sit idley by and enjoy the show? :roll:
I hardly even direct anything at you, duff took the show there.. Nate was even supporting him. Funny you didn't mention that.
You weren't/aren't the sole supporter of that's going on here, in fact i've heard plenty of your thoughts about Neo and everyone, very touching really.
No loss, no foul. We lost drama and a 'woe is me' individual.
So if you're done carrying out an old event, life moves on, so should you.
Please don't email me anymore, I'll simply redirect it to be auto-deleted. I don't have time to play Soap Opera.
Carry on chasing your tail.
Lucky,
Justin
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Awwww man. He's just so pleasant.
And he wonders why his whole team is completely different then when it first started. We all know, just are too nice to tell him.
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| Tahoe here I come woo woo |
March, 12th 2004 |
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 artistic |
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Opeth - Patterns in the Ivy |
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Soooo I will be leaving for Tahoe in about ten minutes. Hopefully I will get some good photos up there =) I got to talk to Nate Nate before I left for the weekend and he is a silleh goose. Maggieh Moo will miss me.. I know =( So will Snickers.
Yeah.. so if I have to hear Amber talk about Metallica or Godsmack anymore, I will scream. They both suck. I'm sorry you like them *cries*.
Yeha.. so for the first time I bought make up that wasn't cheap and stays on. That isn't all.. dramatic I guess. So I take picture. Woo. These are for Nikki for I love her and she needs to come visit me.
( More pics here rawr )
Yeah. And I am flunking two classes. Go me. WOO
yeah. I'm leaving now. Bai bai mew mew
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| Questionsssss |
February, 13th 2004 |
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 ew |
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The gathering - Broken Glass |
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OK. Boredom is making me reply. Weeee. This will be updated as more get asked...
What do you need to be happy?
I need to love myself for who I am as a person... despite the flaws in my personality. I need to learn to not base my whole worth on my looks and what other people think about me.
what is the most beautiful sight you've ever seen?
One morning when I woke up early and saw the sun rise... I've seen it rise so many times but this time was just so, so beautiful. It was when I first moved here too and was very unhappy.. so it just really brightened me up for just those few minutes.
What is the last thing you want to see before you die?
That's so hard... I can't say right now. But if I was to die tommorow it would be the sky. I wouldn't want to die watching my family cry... that would hurt too much. I dunno... such a hard question, Brooke :)
What is your favorite scent?
I am so boring.. .I love flower scents. Roses, gardenias... sunflowers! I'm definitly not much for fruit smells though... yucks!
Is it possible to find true love?
I think it is... I think we will all find it one day. I will.. you will, and everyone will. We may lose it.. But I know at some point we will all find it.
Mr. Blue didnt do it?
Nope. He was busy diving trying to find Nemo in Mexico. Someone should tell him that he should be swimming in Australia.
What is the capital of North Dakota?
I do believe I forgot. I think it starts with a P though... I am way too lazy to look it up ^_~
Normal, Trimmed or Shaved? ;)
We'll just say I am nice and clean. You pervert! Shaving is a good thing.
What is your favorite flower?
A HEATHER!!! No. Not really.. hehe. Gosh I'm lame. I am going to be a stereotypical girl and say red and white roses. They smell so pretty indeed.
have you blocked me again?
Nopes, I have no reason to.
do you like talking to me?
Yes I do, very much so. I just wish you wouldn't be so sad all the time... I never know what to say or if I am saying the right things =(
what do you want to do with your life?
To love and be loved; to do art for a living, and to never grow cold.
Did you lose like a ton of weight? You look really skinny in your pictures. Just wondering.
Yup. I've lost almost 60 pounds since I lived in Tracy. I'm not really skinny... but eh, if I keep starving enough I will be, haha.
Why dont you get on AIM anymore?
Well, AIM has been buggy as hell. And annoying me. I've been busy drawing and making stuff for monies, and sick in bed not in the mood to talk. I'm not avoiding anyone.. I wubs you all. =)
Can I be your bitch? :-)
*cracks whip* BOW. :D
can you please stop crying? we're all crying inside. the pain is unbearable. we know. it is so hard to be insightful artist bleeding woman.
It really is hard to be an artist bleeding woman. But one day I will over come it. Thank you for your concern =)
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| Bored |
February, 12th 2004 |
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 growfie? |
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Ask me questions
be anonymous if you must
and I shall answer.
I am bored, and feel like typing a quiz but don't feel like looking for one.
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